It's God's gift :)

This post has been sitting in my draft for almost a year and I think I shouldn't wait any longer to share my journey with all. Here's why Emmalyn is a gift from God.   

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We always believe that God has his plan and time for us to have a baby. We prayed about it through the years and waited patiently.

I started my degree programme almost 6 months after our wedding in Jul 2010 and targeted to complete my course in Jul 2013. However, we thought to leave it to God and if we have one before I graduate, we will also be ready to welcome our new addition.

In late 2010, I found out that I have a condition called PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). Such condition happens when one’s ovaries do not ovulate regularly and it makes conception more difficult. I was very worried that I would never be able to have a baby naturally but doctor has advised that since I was still young I should just try before considering other options using medications. It is the beginning to the test of our faith and I choose to believe that God will grant me one at the perfect timing according to his will.

In early 2012, I started to see a Chinese doctor who specialises in fertility. He gave acupuncture and Chinese medicines to improve fertility. He is very popular and it is always difficult to secure appointments. Hence, I stopped seeing him in Oct as school has been busy and I decided to take a break from trying to conceive.

In Dec 2012, Hubby asked our cell group to pray for our baby planning as I was to graduate in Jul 13, nothing too specific, during a sharing at church retreat. It was unexpected to hear from him but, anyway, our cell members prayed for us.

Dec was a busy month with all joyous celebrations and I didn’t notice that any symptoms of pregnancy until I felt nausea on 30 Dec. At the first moment, I thought that I didn’t sleep well the day before Dawn & Xu Wen's wedding but later on I began to feel suspicious. After countless disappointments, I didn’t dare to put my hopes high and decided to wait another day till 1 Jan to do a pregnancy test.

I tested using the pregnancy test kit secretly and saw two lines with one that was rather faded. I couldn’t believe my eyes so I decided to have another test about 30 mins later. This time round, the lines were so clear and I anxiously called for Hubby. I was in mixed feelings – happy and unexpected. It’s totally God’s gift. I conceived few days after that faithful prayer! God gives when we opened up our heart to ask him and he gives at his perfect time.

I was contemplating whether to share our little journey but I thought that the glory of God should not be hidden. This pregnancy and parenthood is not just about having another little one, but it is another journey where we experience God's love, learn to have faith in him and walk with him.

Hence so, keep the faith and ASAP - always say a prayer!

“ Ask, and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.” – Matthew 7: 7-8